Can you write a letter to your first love without mentioning his/her name?
07.06.2025 17:55
It all started in eighth grade. Although i have known you since fourth , but it all sparked up four years later. If i come to think of it then i hated you in seventh for breaking my first ever monitor batch. But in eight idk why i became a little fond of you. I wont lie but yes i was always astonished with your maths skills. We barely ever talked even in a class of 35. I can count on all the little conversations we ever had. Whether it was me asking what combination is considered out in hand hockey to a simple one word ‘thankyou’ when you passed me a book. Im not exactly sure what made me like you. But im guessing it was that day in eighth when you were returning your friend's blazer to him and you said sorry as a button had come off. But he got all mad and pulled up your collar and instead of fighting back all you did was to pull yourself away without fighting back or trying to hurt him in any way. You have always been so cool and calm both in and out. It was probably this small gesture which made me develop a crush. Little did i know it would last four damn years.
“Ive been enchanted to meet you”
“ you are so gorgeous it honestly hurts”
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Dear D,
I kind of forgot about in the lockdown. But even after 10th we again chose the same jr.college/classes. Coincidence again?! And the moment i saw you i knew this crush aint going until it crushes me. But whats different was the fact that this time the way you noticed me was different. It felt to me as if i existed for you the first time. But u still didnt T a l k to meee. Till now i was only crushing the personality but now i was crushing you whole. The brownish crisp goldenish skin, prettiest tiny black eyes, perfect nose, chapped dry lips but with the perfectest smile everr. I imagine you in so many taylor songs now. Its crazy. Now that i look back, i would've confessed but after 10th i was going through some different shit at home. Which made me loose interest in almost practically everything for a while. ( yea depression hit, its ongoing lol) Now that our 12th is over. And ik this time you wont be anywhere near to my college ‘Coincidentally ‘ , ill still silently pray somehow in future i get a chance of telling you how wonderful you are. You will probably never like me the way i liked you but knowing the fact that i liked you this way just makes me happy. And agr aage kuch nhi bhi hua hamare beech me im all good ig idk. Par the fact that we both are from the same native city , our moms knew each other , just makes me go like sab kuch itna alligned hai yaar. But nvm. Yea it pisses ke off so muchh to see you with some other girl whos prolly your type. But whatever it is, one thing ik is that i liked you for you , so if ever in future( my delusional ass) if you like me for me only then can we be something. Yea my liking might be on some dangerous top levels for you but still not above myself.
Ending with some lyrics which remind me of you-
But your type girls were different. You were amazing in maths and i hated it. You liked the class topper girls and probably even barely knew about my mere existence. And you never even talked to mee~
Fastforward to after eight just got over( also covid hit right after) and we all had to change schools and join the other branch ( as our school was till 8th only~). Coincidentally we didnt join the other branch and chose a different but same school. But damn you got the other section( so all our classes and group were different and we barely had any class together)
In Taylor's language you are smth i would write songs about~
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“ if you got a girlfriend im jealous of her, but if youre single thats honestly worse”
Sometimes i get confused do i actually like you or are you just a nice person?! ( he is a veryy nice person tho irl)